Jiah Khan’s Last Letter To Boyfriend Before Committing Suicide

June 11, 2013 – Jiah Khan’s Last Heartbreak Letter To Boyfriend Before Committing Suicide  – She Wrote This To Suraj Pancholi Hours Before Killing Herself

This is what Bollywood actress Jiah Khan wrote to her boyfriend, Suraj Pancholi hours before committing suicide last week.

“ I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I  have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading  this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside.  You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point  where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday. These  days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I  saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I  feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or  cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t  matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I  was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you  have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my  soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from  everything. The career is not even worth it anymore. When I first met  you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love  I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny  brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the  torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this. I didn’t see any  love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you  would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and  women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and  miss you. So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never  told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I  chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never  went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never  met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel  constantly. No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as  much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for  me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of  heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o  hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or  throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve  come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you  chase after them in their car. Or disrespects their family. You never  even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I  have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I  did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my  partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me. I  always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I  had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the  face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever  ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so  much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me  something. The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you  cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply.  You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back.  When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be  away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one  year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women  and your selfish motives. All I wanted was you and my happiness you took  both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in  my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to  live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt  of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing  but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep  and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone  even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so  much more than this”

Yours truly

Rabiya khan

Her mother found the letter in her wallet while searching for poems written by her.

The actress allegedly hung herself at her home in Mumbai, India last week.

This is so sad!